I think I’ve finally decided on something truly big and important.. I might regret this decision but then again.. I think I can do it.
I’ll say no, I’ll completely decline my families last will so.. forget about those houses, forget about cars, forget about money.. I won’t take any of it from them. And I do understand that this seems to make no sense, but hey.. I’ve got my pride and my ambitions, I’m a woman, so I’m not required to think logically. I’m brave enough to make this promise – I will start from a complete zero and prove to all my damned family that I can earn and I can gain so much more than they have ever had. I’ll show them how special I am. And then.. then I’ll buy all of the things they have ever had or wanted. And you know what.. I’ll probably give them back those things.. as a gift. Just for fun.
Another thing.. I need to stop drinking. I know it will be really hard for me to live with my mind when it’s not poisoned with the sweet alcohol. But it would be good for me to stay on the “clean side” if just for a month or two.