It’s been a very long time since my previous blog posts. and to be honest with you, I had forgotten, I actually own a blog. Reading my past posts made me feel horrible, disgusted by myself even. Life has changed a lot, I have grown a lot and most of the things said in the past are not relevant whatsoever, they’re horrible lies and spitting in the beauty of the life I have now.
People say awful things that they do not mean when they are upset or angry or drunk and 99.9% of those things are not real. Writing is my way of letting my emotions out, but writing when having these kind of emotions is toxic, and portrays a horrible picture, that is hard to read for the author, and very confusing for the reader, that has no idea, what kind of mindset where the lines written with and does not know that those are all ill words and lies. I have now deleted those horrible posts, as I do not wish to see them.
I have an amazing girlfriend, that has literally gone through hell helping me grow and become the person, that I am today. It has cost a lot for her and I do not know how did get so lucky that she stuck with me through all the shit that I’ve put her through. She is truly one of a kind the most incredible woman with the heart of palladium, and every day I love her more and more, being grateful for her is an understatement. I am blessed. I am loved.
I also have an amazing boyfriend, he’s so calm, I can make a storm around him and he will see reason and love me anyway. I love my boyfriend, I am so happy I have him. He makes my life better, he’s got a very funny side to him that always makes me smile, and he is very intelligent, I could ask him about literally any topic and he will know stuff about it and amaze me.
Next month I am moving back to London, I will have my own room and I will try to make it big in a saloon (I graduated as a medic massage therapist this year, big news woo) while also finding another job as an (fingers crossed) estate agent. I will be closer to my loves, and that makes me so happy, diving in the deep end is extremely scary, but being closer to my loved ones will make it all worth it. Hopefully, my career will be successful and I will be able to spoil them both rotten. Because so far they’ve been the ones spoiling me and I do not know how to repay their kindness, but I will definitely give my best shot at doing so.
So there. That’s it folks. Love, peace and Sufjan Stevens.